The sun has been peaking its head through the clouds quite often these days and I am very happy about this.
Last week, at one of the Kid's clubs, we went to the park. Honzik (little Hoziku) was more adorable and affectionate towards me than ever before. I feel this special connection with him, he doesn't speak (he can talk, but doesn't for some reason, his hearing is good and he understands things, but when it comes to speaking he won't. He has been speaking more lately though, I'll try and make him tell me his name or old he is and he'll whisper it to me, not always the correct sounds, but he's trying. Sometimes he'll point to his mouth and then shake his finger like saying I can't do it. But he laughs and he squeals when he's excited all the same.) and I still feel very limited in my speech so I feel like we are a pair.
As we were walking to the park, Honzik grabbed my hand and almost didn't let go of it the whole time; he gave me hugs (a rare thing he gives!), played with my hair, noticed that my fingernails were all different colors and made a thumbs up, he was just so sweet and it really got to me. There is something so special about him, I can't put my finger on it, but he is special.
We leave in four months and I can't tell you how much my heart hurts already. I've made really great friends, got to know some very interesting kids and the more that I think about it all, the more I realize how much I love each one of them.
My biggest goal now, is to make the most out of the time I have left here and not get into a funk from the emotions beginning to develop.